So consider yourself warned because you probably won’t like what I have to say…
What I have to say is that there is a lot of bullshit flying around in the world; the business world, the coaching world, in the world of professions in general, maybe even in your very own profession…about finding your niche, about specializing, about being THE EXPERT.
And believe me, I was right there among you. I was in the bubble of bullshit. I was in the illusion. I was tasting it. I was eating it. I was swimming in it. I was lapping it up…and not only that, I was talking it. I was sharing it…probably with some of YOU.
So first off, I just wanna say I am really fucking sorry for that...from the bottom...from the very center of my HEART.
Because I HAD to smell it and taste it and eat it and speak it in order for me to understand it…know it…see it…and then wake up from it…get out of the bullshit bubble…so that I can talk to you about it right here, right now.
And you are probably not going to like it.
And I do not care whether you like it or not…because something inside of me has changed. And at first, I didn’t know what it was…because I was reacting and blowing up and freaking the fuck out with this raging ball of fire that I am now calling my FORCE.
I used to think that my FORCE was all light and fluffy, and it was all about playing “nice, nice” and coming from LOOOOOOOVE…and all that stuff…because I wanted everyone to LIKE ME. I wanted everyone to listen to me. So I was playing that “nice, nice” game. And the thing is…is that the truth is not fucking nice. It is not nice at all.
Most of you will rebel from the truth I have to share with you today, and you will want to kill me…
Some of you will hear my truth and say YES TAMARA, THANK YOU. And you, you know, might want to hang out with me, say hello, maybe leave a comment…I HEAR YOU GIRL. STAND UP. SPEAK THE TRUTH.
No matter where you stand on which side of the fence…some of you might even be in the middle…SHIT, I DON’T KNOW. I DON’T KNOW IF WHAT TAMARA IS SAYING IS TRUE OR NOT. THAT’S FASCINATING. INTERESTING EVEN. I DIDN’T THINK OF IT QUITE LIKE THAT. I DIDN’T LOOK AT IT THIS WAY.
So you might not know. You might be on the fence. And that is ok. I love the fence. I like being in the position of NOT KNOWING…because that makes me pay attention…where it brings me into a space of awareness to keep paying attention…to keep looking…to keep being Sherlock Holmes. Looking for the clues. Following the trail.
So whether you hear me, hate me…whether you are rebelling or accepting what I have to say, THE TRUTH, or whether you’re not quite sure yet, leave a comment below:
I HATE THIS TAMARA. IT IS BULLSHIT. YOU ARE FULL OF SHIT.
I LOVE THIS TAMARA. IT’S ABOUT FUCKING TIME. YOU’RE A BREATH OF FRESH AIR.
HMMM. I’M NOT QUITE SURE ABOUT THAT YET TAMARA, BUT I AM GONNA THINK ABOUT WHAT YOU HAVE TO SAY.
So I don’t care where you stand in the trinity. I USED to care where you stand in this trinity…because I wanted everyone to be like YES TAMARA. THAT’S LOVELY. WE HEAR YOU. WE BELIEVE YOU. WE’RE GONNA FOLLOW YOU. TELL US MORE. Because I wanted you to like me, and accept me.
But I don’t care about that shit anymore. That’s the illusion.
So what I am doing today, is I am sharing a whole lot of illusions with you, of which you probably don’t even know that. Some of you...because you get me, you feel me...are probably like me. Some of you don’t. Some of you are probably still waking up to yourselves, getting to know YOU, who you are, what you’re doing here. And some of you are fast asleep…and you’re the fucking problem. You are part of the zombie apocalypse. You are part of the illusion. And you know what? I am so grateful that you are here. YOU are the reason that I am here. To wake the fuck up.
So I don’t care if you love me. I don’t care if you hate me. I don’t care if you don’t know what the fuck to do with me. I don’t care anymore. Because what I care about more than your like or dislike or judgement of ME, is the motherfucking truth. Because that is what I am doing on this planet. I am here to remember the truth...and to share the truth.
And first, I had to wake up to the fucking truth…because the illusion and the bullshit are so goddamn thick on this planet, it’s un-fucking-believable. And those of us who are here to wake up…because let me tell you, not all of you are going to wake up. Not all of you are even here to wake up. A lot of you are here to play a completely different game…and that’s ok…it’s fucking perfect. It’s part of the DIVINE PLAN. So I am not judging anybody for where or how or what team they’re playing for, or if they’re just sitting in the bleachers watching the show. Sometimes I am in the bleachers watching the show. Sometimes I’m on the field playing the motherfucking game. I don’t’ judge myself for that. IT IS NECESSARY. It is necessary to do it ALL to wake the fuck up.
So I don’t care…about you. What I care about is waking up from the illusion. The thing about waking up from the illusion, is you wake up, and you think…
YES, I’M AWAKE. I HAVE ALL OF THE ANSWERS. I AM NOW AN ASCENDED MASTER. NOW I CAN GO TEACH.
I know this. I know this well. Because it happened to me. And it may of even happened to you. Shit! It might still be happening to you right now. You could still be waking up from the spiritual or new age illusion/delusion. And boy, that one was a hard one to wake up from. I was so in it and I was in it deep! I had a warm fuzzy blanket of bullshit covering me and I loved it. If you would have told me some of the things I am now ready to share with you, I would have tried to light you on fire and kill YOU...
So now you're awake...and you think you are an Ascended Master.
And then shit happens. And then you wake up some more…
AHH! GOT IT. I HAVE MORE TO TEACH, MORE TO SHARE. NOW I REALLY AM AN ASCENDED MASTER. I THINK I AM ARC-FUCKING-ANGEL MICHAEL. AND YOU START TEACHING ANGEL WORKSHOPS LIKE I DID! YEP! NICE FUZZY BLANKET OF BULLSHIT. LOVED IT!
And then you wake up some more. And then you wake up some more…and more…and more…and more…and more…and more.
I have woken up so many fucking times, I don’t even know at this point in my life if ANY OF US will EVER be totally and truly awake on this motherfucking planet. And the thing about that right now, this very moment, is that I don’t even care. I’m just going to keep doing what I do…which is waking MY SELF the fuck up. I might still be waking up to some of the things I'm telling you right now. I might change my mind if and when more truth comes. Stay tuned...because I am still waking the fuck up.
And if I happen to wake anybody else up…GREAT. And if I don’t…that’s ok too…because the person I came here to play this game and to see if I can wake up through the illusion was ME. It was a testament and proof to myself that I can do it. I can go to that motherfucking planet, where it’s all kinds of crazy going on there…and it’s like a game…it’s a maze…and I’m really fucking good with mazes and puzzles and games. I LOVE THEM. I love them…because I am playing the biggest game EVER by coming to this motherfucking godforsaken planet…which is perfect…and part of the DIVINE PLAN.
But there are a lot of things here that don’t make no fucking sense. And that’s what we’re waking up to. Why is this happening? Because when you start to wake up, you start to ask questions...you start to get answers...you start to see…you start to think…OH! WELL, THAT MAKES PERFECT SENSE. And then you stop judging it. You stop hating it. You stop fighting against it. And I still judge it and hate it for the sake of this conversation…and for the parts of me that are still waking up. Because your judgements and your hate and all of the things you have in resistance, are all of the things that are showing you where you still have to wake up. So if you stay in resistance, you’re not waking up. At least not that part.
So that’s the goal: WAKE MYSELF UP. GAME OVER.
Help other people: WOOHOO! BONUS!
I’m doing both. Because I can handle it. I’ve done it. I am doing it. So if YOU want to, and you are waking yourself up, GO YOU. FUCKING A! Some of you have no fucking clue what I am even talking about and that is TOTALLY FINE. I’m talking to you, but I am not talking to you. If you know what I mean, but you probably don’t…and that’s okay.
Speaking truth is fucking hard, man. Because people are going to judge me. And that is a little scary and exciting...and everything in between. I think I'm ready for it. I guess I know I am or I wouldn't be sharing this with you right now. But I won't really know until I just start speaking it on a grander level than just to my clients, students and friends. So hi! Here I am!
Getting hit by truth is fucking harder than speaking it…because it HURTS. It shatters your motherfucking mind into a million goddamn pieces and that is exactly what needs to happen…because our mind has been arranged in this illusion. It’s been created for the illusion...or maybe it is what created the illusion. So regardless of anything, you have to shatter it…to get out of it…to see it…to rise above it…and allow the higher mind, let’s call it…or your conscious mind…your higher consciousness…Christ consciousness...whatever you want to call that shit…your high self, your god self, your goddess self, your divine self…whatever the fuck word you like. I use all kinds of words…because I like words. Words are fun.
So you’re here to wake up. We’re here to wake up. Waking up is hard work. It takes fucking dedication. It takes hours. It takes days, weeks, months and years…and diligence to take your SELF away from the pack…of ILLUSIONISTS…and the fucking gurus…and the followers…and the sheeps…and the zombies…and ALL the bullshit out there…it takes fucking HARD WORK. And man, it’s the best work I have ever done. The best fucking work I. HAVE. EVER. DONE. And I am still doing.
So back to…niching…and specializing…and being THE EXPERT…
So what I’ve seen through some of these workshops, seminars and programs that I have been through myself…and all of the business coaches and mentors and experts and friends…and everything and everyone in between…is that…there are a lot of people out there that cannot tell their ass from a hole in the motherfucking ground. They are not professionals. They are not healers. They are not confident. They don’t even know who the fuck they are…but all of the sudden, they’re THE EXPERT.
And why, all of the sudden, are they THE EXPERT? Because some motherfucking coach or seminar leader or person or EXPERT told them to BE THE EXPERT. That’s like faking it until you make it. And believe me…I don’t have no fucking problem with fake it ‘til you make it. I got fake fucking blonde hair. My hair’s not this light. And I don’t give a fuck. I LOVE BLONDE HAIR. I’m gonna go and have fake fucking blonde hair…because on this planet, you can do whatever you want. If I want boobs that are the size of basketballs…I can go get them…if that’s what I want.
And that’s not the point.
The point is this…there are a lot of people out there that are faking it. And the REASON that they're maxing out their credit cards and going to these seminars and workshops and programs about niching and marketing and stuff is because they’re not making money in their fucking business…because they’re lost….they’re confused…their mind is scattered…not shattered. They don’t know how to run a business. They don't know how to make money. And they don’t even know WHO THEY ARE.
That is the problem…they don’t even know who they are.
So they go and listen to somebody else who says BE THE EXPERT. And all of the sudden, I AM THE MEDITATION EXPERT. You look at this person…and…fucking God…or Darth…or someone please help me…have they ever fucking meditated? This person…DOESN’T. KNOW. SHIT. The reason that they already weren’t calling their self THE EXPERT…of meditation for example…is because they didn’t fucking BELIEVE that they were….because they are NOT.
The whole point of waking up…is to believe in your SELF…and your gifts…and your powers…and more important than that…IS TO KNOW WHO YOU ARE. Who are you? Who am I? is the fucking question. KNOW THYSELF. And then you know everything.
I have spent hours…years…I was meditating by myself on a fucking mountain in Christmas Hills, Australlia…ten hours a week…waking the fuck up...meditating and meditating and meditating...writing and writing and writing…remembering and remembering and remembering...and getting answers, and insights, and epiphanies…I would get goose bumps…and all you people that get all that same stuff…because you’re doing the work...know EXACTLY what I mean.
All the other dumb fucks out there…and yep you’re all a bunch of dumb fucks out there…you’re dumb…because you don’t even know WHO YOU ARE. You are so motherfucking dumb, you have to go pay someone else to tell you who they think you are...and to tell you to BE THE EXPERT. You’re not a fucking expert. You KNOW you are not an expert. And not only that, you are making all of the true experts out there look bad…and there are some real authentic experts out there who are absolutely amazing at their profession…and if you are one of them…go you! I bow to you! You are a breath of fresh fucking air!
So you’re…all of the sudden, THE EXPERT, writing “Meditation Expert” out there in the world. And you know what, it doesn’t work either…you’re not getting no clients…you’re not making no money…because you don’t BELIEVE it. The energy…and the frequency…does not match who you are…your vibration…with the words that you are spitting out…parroting out…from someone else. You didn’t come up with that yourself. You were forced and pushed…and you PAID someone…to bully you into putting the most horrendous video blogs I have ever seen out into the world...when you know you are so not ready to put anything out into the world...at least not yet...and you paid them to make you believe that you are now THE EXPERT…and you know deep down inside that it is not true. It’s not fucking true. You are NOT the expert. And you know it.
So I’m not telling you to stop being the “Meditation Expert”. I am telling you to wake the FUCK UP…and look at what’s really going on here. Look at yourself. Take a close, deep, hard look at yourself. And ask yourself...Who the fuck am I?
And you might be asking yourself this question right now...
WHO THE FUCK IS THIS TAMARA GIRL?
Yep. And you know what? This Tamara girl knows exactly who the fuck she is…which is why I have no problem saying FUCK a hundred fucking times. I love that fucking word.
GOD DAMN…I LOVE THAT WORD…FUCK!
You know what? I love all kinds of words. You know what word in the dictionary I can’t fucking stand? The one that freaks me out the most? Is the word FESTER. I do not like that fucking word. Ugh. Fester. Don’t like it. It creeps me out. To me, fester is a BAD word…not fuck, not goddamn, not shit, not piss, not motherfucker, not cocksucker, not cunt. I love cunt. I didn’t like cunt until I came to Australia ten years ago, but fucking A man, I fucking love cunt. There’s some power in that word. CUNT! Love it! And ladies, if you actually knew what that word means, you would join me in calling yourself a cunt. Yep, I am a cunt!
I know who I am. And I’m not afraid to stand here and say the truth to you right now. I don’t care what you think about me. And there is nothing more powerful than that!
So all I have to say is GO GET YOUR POWER. Don’t listen to Tamara. Listen to YOU.
And if you don’t know how to do that, well...maybe I can help.
Alchemy, Magic, Intuition, Love, Light, Dark, Fire, Stars & Stuff…
International Intuitive Healer
PS: You may contact me. We can have a session. We can have a good conversation about it. If you want to know your SELF, I’m your girl. Because I have been there, I have done it and I am still doing it. I am still waking up, and this I know. “The woman who knows something, knows that she knows nothing at all.” Have a great day! Rainbows and lollipops and baseball bats to shatter the illusionist in each of US! May the FORCE be YOU! xo
She Said What?
"Working with Tamara over the years in intuitive healing sessions has helped me to hone my skills in not only listening to my intuition, but more importantly, in trusting the messages I receive. This has not only enabled me to uncover and overcome some deep seated issues, but has put me in good stead to improve my life day to day through fine tuning my ability to listen and learn from the messages I receive, rather than ignore them. This is an extremely empowering gift, and now I drive my own vessel with guidance from my higher self and continue to learn and grow from my journey through this life." ~Gem Lowman, Melbourne, Australia
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Love it, un-fucking-believable... Tamara, this is awesome! The best way to learn rather than telling me, you're allowing me to read a story to understand and evolve. How it's written is in a class of its own. It's a true story woven into the fabric of people's daily life and spiritual growth...
It is an intimate true story of a woman's journey for the truth and enlightenment written in the form of a novel. You just lose yourself in it and instantly feel better, and make connections in your own life. It's like it was written for me.
~Coach Carl, USA